If you haven’t noticed, I think about death a lot, cracking wise around the corner. It forces the moment, keeps me on the tip of my toes and reassures me that in the end, I’ll be in the arms of a lifelong friend.
When I was a pigtailed girl in the kaleidoscope of my brain, instead of letting a sappy ending dull me to sleep at night; I’d lie in the dark in bed, heaven rocking overhead, clasp my hands across my chest, take one last gasping breath and bring myself to the brink of death. Good thing I was lying down because I could have passed out.
In film school, I wrote a tragi-comedy about my funeral. I wanted to imagine that people loved me with complete abandon. I wanted to show them how and why. I sweat blood on the keys writing my eulogy, and I made myself cry.
Whenever I talk about dying, my 78 year-old mother says poo-poo, which is her way of warding off evil. I only hope it happens to me after she’s gone, because the way she talks, it would kill her. I’ll be sure not to tell her that my old pal J just dusted off his classic Honda 400 Super Sport that scarred my right leg forever, and asked me to go for a ride.
Forever is a dream.
These days, as the passing of time has it, I’ve been hanging with the final-chapter set, which is always a hoot. In the early stages of Alzheimer’s, my beloved 84 year-old cousin Sara swears, I’m not afraid to die, I just don’t want to be a blithering idiot. I wonder, why this sudden interest in decorum? I have adored this woman my whole life for her lack of tact and lusty mouth. Poo-poo.
In the moment, I come down to earth. It will be quiet when we’re dead.
(Sara always has the last word)
What are your favourite films about life and death? Here’s a trio of mine:
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